Waiting and Wondering What’s Next

This post was originally published on my Facebook page. An expanded version of this message is available via audio format at Hidden Headlines Podcast, #54 

Wait on the Lord; Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the Lord!  –Psalm 27:14

Psalm 27, written by ancient Israel’s King David, is one of great encouragement, particularly for those finding themselves in a time of trial. At this juncture in my life’s journey it’s a divine message that strikes a chord.

As some of you are aware, God has allowed me to be inflicted by an infirmity that at times has the ability to negatively impact my cognitive wellbeing.  As such I could not, with confidence, conduct a live radio talk show.  Other aspects of my life are also at times compromised by this disorder (such as my ability to drive—a real bummer because I own a car that is, shall we say, exhilarating).

Fortunately, there are tried and true medicines that should eventually bring my situation under control.  It’s also possible that (if the Lord allows) this condition will eventually depart for good.

Before I share my plans going forward, allow me to elaborate on Psalm 27, verse 14.

The original Hebrew word used in this passage for “wait” is qavah (pronounced kaw-vaw). It implies a type of waiting that includes tension, patience, and endurance. In other words, this type of waiting is not passive, it’s expectant.

“Courage” is chazaq (pronounced kaw-zahk). It means to be strong. In this context it seems David is telling us to be especially determined during our time of expectant waiting.

This verse also uses the Hebrew word amets (pronounced aw-mets) which means stout, strong, bold, and alert. In this case it’s translated “strengthen.”

The Hebrew word for “heart” is leb. It refers to our inner human, that is our mind and will, the things that make us tick.

So, my personal interpretation of this text is:

Expectantly and with determination, wait for the Lord to provide remedy.  As you do, allow Him to enable you to confront the challenge that lays before you and He will in the process strengthen your mind, thus permitting you to gain clarity and see what He will/can/is able to do.

Oddly, it’s not medical challenges that have caused me to wait on the Lord.  The question laying before me is what to do with the gifts and talents He has blessed me with.  I no longer host a hugely popular radio program; it’s as if my worldly significance as a man has been lost. However, I’m reminded of another Biblical scripture which is pretty deep, but says this:

Once you were alienated from God and were enemies in your minds because of your evil behavior. But now he has reconciled you by Christ’s physical body through death to present you holy in his sight, without blemish and free from accusation—if you continue in your faith, established and firm, and do not move from the hope held out in the gospel (Colossians 1:21-23).

In more simpler terms, this passage declares that all of us are inherently opposed to the ways of God. However, God came to earth in that of the perfect human, Jesus the Messiah, to be sacrificed for our sins, thus reconciling us before our heavenly Father and, should we decide to place our faith in Him, give us eternal life.

That said, my significance is not based on the gifts and talents which made for a good radio show. Instead, my significance is based on what God did for me: He died for my miserable sins and has promised me life eternal. That’s beyond awesome!

So, at the advice of some trusted friends (and my always astonishing wife), I am waiting on the Lord.  They’ve all suggested I sit out from mass media for an entire year.  It will be a time for me to seek God’s will and hopefully realize how He would like to use the abilities He has graciously given me going forward.

It’s interesting to note that the Colossians passage I shared was written by the man often referred to as Saint Paul.  He was an ultra-orthodox Jew who formerly hunted down fellow Jewish men who followed Jesus, even putting some to death. After his shocking decision to become a follower of Jesus, Paul disappeared for well over a decade to wait on the Lord for direction. I’m sort of doing the same thing.

I have no idea what the future might look like. A blog? A podcast? A video-channel? A book? Live speaking? One-on-one communication? Or nothing of the sort? I have no clue, but I’m open to whatever God wants from me.

So, this is my last post perhaps for a long time.  Right now, I plan on returning for a follow up in three-months, just to inform those interested where I am in this pilgrimage and what God is revealing to me.  I have produced a brief podcast and video (available via my website) which also share this same message.

Thank you for your outpouring of support. I eagerly await what is to come.

May the God of all Creation richly bless you.

 

 

Brian Sussman

Reader Interactions

Comments

  1. John O'Connell says

    God Bless Brian and thank you for all of your years on Bay Area media – May you have a well deserved rest and grow in your relationship to Our Lord Jesus Christ to gain the wisdom and courage to take the next steps in your journey.

      • Gerry Pieters says

        Dear Brian,

        I have watched you on TV as a meteorologist and listened to you on radio for many years. I’ve always enjoyed your personality, likeability, clear reasoning and knowledge you displayed. When I realized through your radio program that you were a conservative, that was a big bonus, since we are rare here on the left coast👍🏻 I am praying for you for the complete healing of your infirmity and God’s blessing on you and your family. I’m going to miss listening to you on the radio, especially during this political season, but hope that you will thrive and continue to do good work according to God’s plan for your life.

        God Bless,
        Gerry

        • Brian Sussman says

          This has been a wild season, Gerry. Someday I’ll share all the details.
          Meantime, God is doing some amazing things in my heart as I’m being forced to rely on Him like never before.
          What I am experiencing health-wise is not life-threatening, but it is life-changing.
          Very best regards,
          Brian

  2. Ral Williams says

    I responded on your FB page (with a hundred other folks), but am hoping to gain your attention here.
    Thank you for your many years of service on the radio. You truly did represent the one who says, “No man comes to the Father but my me.”
    I’ll check back in three months,
    Ral Williams

  3. Rory Odegaard says

    Brian,

    Miss your presence on the radio each morning (including Katie, and Sherri!). May God richly bless you at this time of retreat.
    I will be praying for your healing and direction. Take care.

    • Brian Sussman says

      Thanks for the kind words, Rory.
      I really appreciate the prayers and look forward to the future.
      Brian

  4. Alice M. says

    Noticed you have also changed your Twitter feed.
    Is that a part of this social media overhaul too?
    Alice M.

  5. Brian Sussman says

    Yes, Alice.
    Even though I’ve been shadow-banned by Twitter for years and was not using the platform any longer, I erased all my previous Tweets, dropped those I was following, and have dedicated the account to nothing but Scripture–one passage at a time.
    Best regards,
    Brian

  6. Brian Sussman says

    I’m thinking that my time of laying out will be from the public spotlight (where I have lived my entire adult life).
    Some dear friends have given me some wonderful ideas…
    Blessings,
    Brian

    • Michael Schibler says

      Bless you in your discernment phase going forward. Listen to “wifey.” She hasn’t steered you wrong yet! Hopefully, we the public and your fans will here more from you. But all in God’s plan.
      Blessings,
      Michael

      • Brian Sussman says

        Was just tweeting my website and saw your wonderful word of encouragement, Michael.
        It’s been quite a journey these last several months, but wifey did let me do a podcast today, then back to gardening!
        Blessings to you as well,
        Brian

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *

Share This